Did you know that LJ totally tells you when you last posted? Do you also know that my last post was, well a hella long time ago... Like... over two years, can you freaking believe it?
XD I just don't know where to start, God it's been so very long since I've done something like this. I mean, don't get me wrong, journaling was something I used to do on a regular basis. Don't believe me? http://bold_dreamer.pitas.com
. XD Go there, read the old lawl that was. I used to think I was the coolest kid on the block, I dabbled in html and I had the dorkiest fandoms. What a little dumbshit I was... XD I've tried to revive the once dead blog, but it really probably won't come back. But who knows, hearing about a lot of my friends LJ kinda made me want to start up again.
-Did you know it took me a pretty damn long time to learn how to tie my shoes? I really was shitty at it XD-
As a psych major, I understand (or try to) the importance of understanding one's thoughts. Or, in the circumstance that you don't, writing them down to try to make sense of things. Journals are also a healthy release for when you're overburdened with a lot fo conflicting/stressful thoughts and want to get them out. Besides, this way you can post how you feel without screaming at a friend or pillow and look like a royal dumbass. Least that's the way I see it.
-Did you know I sleep most at ease when there are at least 4-5 pillows in my bed? When Lea says a "bed of a thousand pillows" she isn't too far off-
Anyway, I haven't been on LJ for a freaking long time. Really doesn't surprise me though, to this day I still don't know how to properly make a "cut" and post it on a journal. Don't believe me, look at like 2-3 posts ago. XD See the "stolen from toko" XD god it's posted like 17 times... Man, I really haven't blogged in a while, look at me listlessly moving from topic to topic. My icon bothers me a little, I just made it before I posted this (believe it or not icons used to be one of my favorite things to make, I'd do a bunch of bullshit to pictures and call them 'art'). I kinda like the setup, the pose, the words... but somehow I squished LOVERS too close to the top and it doesn't look as balanced as Quarrel. I'll probably go back and remake the icon, I didn't save the psd. XD Eh, we'll see...
-Did you know that I had double jointed elbows? I'm sure I've told you before, I take a strange sick pride in it.-
Two years, wow. Do you know how much shit has happened in two years? I started college, almost flunked out ((well "flunking" in college standards is anything below a C)), took a break at home, came back, and now am doing pretty well. I have met some of the greatest people in my life and I'm proud to say they're my friends. I've attended far too many conventions and not told my parents about them >.>;; I'm not a bad kid, I swear, it's just mom's overprotective even now and worries about me.
-Did you know (I'd HOPE you knew) that I have a terrible height fetish. Like god, the taller the man, the sexier by default. Oh and to be technical, it's a "partialism" a fetish is referring to an item, something most times inorganic (ex. leather), a partialism is favoritism to a certain part of the body-
I talked to my mom today about the prospects of me getting a tattoo. It's something I've wanted since I was 16. Y'know what she said? "Hey if that's what you want and it's something small, go for it." Not that my mom isn't an open person, she is... but I still worry about that sort of thing. 21 or not, I still care a lot of what my parents think of me. And not to say that I'd limit my freedoms because of them, I definitely like to have their approval. I've always been like this too, I think it's why when I started doing so terrible in college I just fell apart. Feeling like I failed my family and friends is one of the worst, most terrible feelings in the world. I hope I never, ever feel like that again.
-Did you know that my first word was "dada?" Mom likes to tease me that I've always been a daddy's girl. But honestly, the older I get the more I become my mother everyday. Needless to say I'm proud I can mimic such a wonderful, strong woman.-
God it has been a LONG time, disjointed flowing of words tends to signify some sort of lapse in writting things down. I really should do it more often, I think it makes me feel on top of things. That's something I find really interesting that I don't talk about a lot. I don't sit down and think about my thoughts as much as I used to. Mind you, I have the most terrible ability to over-analyze. Going through psych, though, I'm starting to learn how to balance that out. I do really love psychology, even if I don't always seem like it. Sure, I came in wanting to be a doctor, but psychology has become my passion. The human mind is fascinating, and perhaps one day I can find a way to help everybody else... somehow. Or something, I don't know... I WANNA BE A GOOD PERSON AND HALP OK XD. And yes, Halp.
-Did you know that one of my good friends (Rini) and I write dirty dirty dirty
smut scenes? Sometimes these scenes are so bad that I can't really tell my other friends about them. XD I get so embarassed that I try to write them at night when no one's around so no one but Rini judges me XDD-
On the subject of dirty minds, I really have a lot to talk about the subject. XD I'm starting to die from sleeping, but I definitely will add to this as the journal posts continue. Needless to say: sex in public, roleplaying sex, sureshots to the face, and multiple orgasms are just of a few subjects touched upon. XDDD We're... oh god we're creative fuckers. I know if all else fails Rini and I can write smutty romance novels or design Hgames XDDD
With my dirty mind being mentioned I'll leave you with a little present. Did you know this is like my super guilty pleasure Bleach pairing and one of my favorites~
Enjoy lovelies XD I'm sorry to poison you with... PAPACEST
music: Miku Hatsune - The Conbini Song